I’ve always been a huge believer in hope. Maybe that’s why, while I hate romantic movies, I love Hope Floats. Birdie Calvert says in it that if you give hope a chance to float, it will– but can you let go and let it float too high?
If you let your hope float up and soak up more an more, can it become too high and too big? I feel like I’ve lost control of my hopes for the guy I’m seeing and our relationship. I like him, entirely, but at the same time I’m scared that my hopes are too big.
I’m not saying that I want to give up on the hopes with him, but I just want to reign them in a little bit. Is it possible to pull back hopes that are out too high?
Today is my birthday. Today is my first ever birthday date…. it’s also the first date I’ve really ever had with a guy I’m falling for head over heels.
It’s a new year for me and I’m letting myself fall for this guy. Knowing he’s been hurt, knowing he’s scared and knowing that I have no clue what the future holds. All I know, is that he’s a good guy and he’d never hurt me on purpose. I also know that I have never been as excited about anything birthday related as my dinner with him tonight and a birthday kiss.
Exactly why I’m risking the hurt, because it could be great!
This coming weekend will be a year since the day you walked back into my life, but I had no idea that day or even in the weeks following it how important you would soon become to me. That day at a friends wedding I noticed you, we traded phone numbers after discovering we lived near each other and planned to catch up on our recent lives.
Did you know that a year later you’d be referring to me as your significant other and I’d be posting pictures of us on Facebook? Did I have any clue that I’d be talking to my friends about the outfit I bought with the sole purpose of “wowing” you when you took me out to celebrate my birthday?
It’s crazy to me looking back on this past year and how I hadn’t thought of you in years and this past year I’m not sure if a single day has passed without you crossing my mind.
I wonder where we’ll be one year from now…