You Saw Through Me.

Last night I was texting my boyfriends sister (okay, so we are still only dating– but let’s be real– after almost 7 months, he’s a boyfriend) and she randomly commented on how she has no idea how strong I can be and that I’m one of the strongest people she knows.  I was baffled– how could this girl who I’ve only really known for two weeks say such a thing?

Jokingly, I asked her what she meant– and she mentioned that the way I’ve supported her brother and waited to be with him while he battles the memories of his ex shows I’m stronger than most thing. I was baffled as to how she could see through all of that in such a short time. 

I answered her why it’s easy to wait for him and support him through it– Hope that things will work out, the believe that he’s worth it, the knowledge that he makes me happy and whole.  She was amazed that I could have that much faith. 

Maybe there’s a reason she and I get along so well? Maybe there’s a reason she can see through me and she knows me so well already? But then again… maybe that’s just me trying to get my hopes up that he’s the one for me?


Dear Future Boyfriend… God Gave Me You, He’ll Guide Me To You

Dear Future Boyfriend,

As I sit here listening to Blake Shelton’s “God Gave Me You” I realize that not only has he put you on this Earth to spend life with me and vice versa, he’ll make sure that he guides me to you also.

God didn’t put two people who were meant to be together on this planet in hopes we’d find each other at some point.  He laid out our lives full of trials and tests and triumphs so that when our paths cross, not only do we find each other– we are ready to be the person the other one needs to be whole.  Maybe our paths will cross several times, maybe they will cross once, but I’m confident that the paths will become a larger road together when God plans it.

That makes me sure that not only did God give me you for every reason and more that Blake mentions in the song, but also that he’ll guide each of us to the other and at the right time that our paths are meant to merge and become a road instead of merely splitting off again.

Love Always,

Your Future Girlfriend

Roadmap or Obstacle Course?

After a weekend back in college and a few heart-to-hearts between me and the guy I’m talking to– I realized that God has either given me a road map to follow or an obstacle course to get through. The problem is– I’m not sure which it is.


At the same time though, I wonder if I want to know which it is.  Regardless of what kind of map I hold in my hand, i’ll end up somewhere different, both courses might change me– granted one will leave me bruised and sore while one will leave me refreshed.  Maybe the roadmap has traffic or maybe it’s a smooth ride?  Maybe the obstacle course has rivers to forge or electric shocks to avoid?  Only getting out there and following the path will show me and start the journey to where I need to go.

Yes, I want to know which it is so I can prepare properly– tennis shoes or flip flops, dress or spandex? But I think I can drive with tennis shoes and get through a few obstacle in flip flops– so maybe the preparation doesn’t matter.

Have you ever been given a map and weren’t sure if it was to the roads around you or to an obstacle course?  How did you get through– other than having faith?

Dear Future Boyfriend– I Am In No Rush

Dear Future Boyfriend,

I am in no rush for us to be together.  Yes, the sooner the better. But I know that we both have things to learn, feel, be hurt by, and do before we find our way to each other— things that must happen in order for us to happen.

You see, I trust that God has a plan for each of us.  I know that he will make sure we are together how we are supposed to be together when the time is right and not a day sooner.  It’s the knowledge and faith in his plan that doesn’t have me looking at the clock or calendar for you and I to be official.

I will not pressure our relationship or try to speed things a long.  There’s no amount of time too long for me to wait for you– you and I will be together when the timing is right.

Love always,

Your Future Girlfriend